Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen."
What do you think about when you read this verse? This makes me think of several things and I would like to talk about a couple of those. Sometimes we have faith, but then when God doesn't do what we think He should do we become discouraged and begin to doubt God.
First, this takes me back to Nathan's journey through cancer. Throughout most of Nathan's treatment I had great faith that Nathan was going to be okay. I knew and still know that God has great plans for Nathan. I have to admit that the first few days after Nathan was diagnosed I was weary and was wondering why God would do this to our family and how God could let this happen to a tiny little baby. After the initial shock wore off I began to trust in God for complete healing of Nathan's cancer. Who else was I going to turn to to heal Nathan and bring me peace and comfort during one of the hardest times in my entire life? Faith can sometimes waver though and I hate to admit that mine did a few times, but then God would do something to remind me that he is in control. Nathan had scans to check the size of his tumor when he was about 6 weeks old. We had been praying for a miracle so I was trusting God that when Nathan had his first scan the tumor would be gone. Of course that didn't happen and I had a time of discouragement and fear. God showed us that He was in control and that Nathan would be healed in His time and not ours. The tumor had shrank and that was what the doctors were looking for. Instead of being discouraged, my faith grew. No, that wasn't the only time my faith grew weary but my faith did continue to grow. God healed Nathan in His time and not ours. I didn't want Nathan to suffer and have to go through chemo and surgery and I really didn't want him to have to go through being as sick as he got. God however, had a much bigger and different plan. I don't know how many people were touched by Nathan's story or how many people if any came to know Christ or reconnected with Christ because of Nathan's story, but I do know that God uses everything for His glory. Nathan's journey has forever changed my life and strengthened my faith.
Secondly, this brings me to something more recent. I actually have Hebrews 11:1 stuck on a sticky note on my monitor in my cubical at work. Earlier this year I applied for a job that I really wanted and I knew that I was qualified for it. I was trusting in God that this job was for me as this would be a great thing for my career and my family. I interviewed for the position and my interview went really well. I wrote Hebrews 11:1 on the sticky note because I was trusting in God and had faith that He was going to allow me to get this job. Silly me! God always knows what is right for us and when it is right for us. This job wasn't right for me at that time and it may never be, but I know that God is always going to provide for me and my family. I have been blessed with a great job and for that I am thankful. This verse is still stuck on my monitor at work, but now it just reminds me to keep my faith in all things.
I know this was a lot of rambling but I was just trying to get my thoughts out here. I am no expert on faith and the Bible, so please keep that in mind since you have read my thoughts. I just know what faith has done for me and how it has affected my life. God's will is always done, but we still should have faith because that is what we are called to do. Our prayers might not be answered the way we want them answered, but they are always heard. Keep your faith.